It’s been a week for me.
In fact, it’s been quite the few months.
I always like to fill my love letters to you with love, obvs 😜
Inspiration and encouragement and a sprinkling of sunshine, lollipops, and rainbows but these last couple of months have been tough.
It's that old saying you never really know what goes on behind closed doors…
I lost my godfather who I was really close to, more than some of my immediate family, a couple of weeks ago.
It was eight weeks from diagnosis to gone.
The funeral was on Monday, and it was tough to say the least.
Then a few months ago it became apparent that I have Autism Spectrum Condition.
I’ve been met with scepticism and out right denial and to be honest I questioned it myself.
But after four tests where I was well above the mean average for females with Autism Spectrum Condition and a screening with my doctor I’m now on the waitlist for an “official” diagnosis.
It’s been a lot to wrap my head around, but oh my gosh does it all make sense now.
So why am I sharing this, I’m not really sure.
Maybe it’s to connect with you.
Maybe it’s to pull back the curtain on what goes on behind the scenes as sometimes the only things I share are the positive, happy vibes and I can feel a bit like the wizard in the film Oz.
I can also feel massive amounts of guilt for not creating offerings, showing up and being a bad-ass, boss, babe.
But at the end of the day.
I’m just a human, trying her best and hoping to leave this world a better place than she found it with a bucket load more love and compassion and that starts with me.
So today I have a Hawaiian Forgiveness Prayer named Ho'oponopono for you.
🌸 I’m sorry that sometimes I can be so hard on myself, ask so much of myself, place so much expectation and pressure on myself when what I really need is time, self-compassion and self-love and to slow things down.
🌸Please forgive me for sometimes getting so caught up in always being “on”, always making sure others are alright before myself and feeling extreme guilt that I should be “doing” something and not allowing my mind to process or my body to rest when it needs to.
🌸 Thank you for reminding me of how unique and beautiful I am no matter what the world around me says and for shifting my attention back to me and what I need in this moment.
🌸I love you with all your “imperfections”, gifts and uniqueness and that needs to be loved, nurtured and celebrated as you’re a beautiful, loving soul and this world needs you and it doesn’t matter which season you’re in you can always hold the frequency of love for yourself.
👉 Say the above prayer out loud in front of a mirror as your eyes are the window to your soul and just let it work its healing magic. ✨
So whether you have the energy to share yourself and your gifts with the world right now or not, that doesn’t matter.
What matters is you hold, dance, relish in the frequency of love and compassion for yourself as I promise you those thoughts and feeling will ripple out into the world and help us as a global community to heal.
👉 Let me know in the 👇comments 👇 an act of kindness for yourself which raises your frequency to one of love and feels good I might just borrow it. 😜
Thank you for letting me write to you each week.
It’s such an honour to do so and one I cherish. 🥰
It fills my cup up like you wouldn’t believe.
Love you. 💛